Status of week of 8/4 - 8/10 Tasks

Saturday's at the library... it took me a minute to get here and I still haven't checked anything off my list but still being productive.

For instance I finally got around to moving MD paperback to kdp (with there no longer being a CreateSpace).  I'm also needing to look at more Illustrator videos since I'm still trying to navigate my scans.  I was thinking I would just be able to turn them into Vector files from AI and maybe use Paint afterwards but it's not working out too well.  So I may need to spend a bit more time in AI and color from there.

I didn't get much done yesterday, at all.  Friday turned out to be sort of a free for all.  Other than getting my hair done and attending a class "Mastering Your Energy" I did not get anything accomplished on the writing front.  I was hoping to get a bit more in today but I have about another hour left before the library closes.  I think I'll plan on working on doing the last two index cards either tonight or tomorrow at Panera.

At any rate let me reflect on the things I DID accomplish this week and also recognize the other items (nearly 20) that I didn't will likely be moved onto next week for tasks.

So this week I checked off a total of 8 task but I'd say the big call outs were:
- Time working on my spreads (either researching, scanning, and/or layout)
- Getting back on the ball with blogging
- Writing progress

Next week looking forward to getting through more.

Thoughts are things...

We create our reality.

That said I’ve been leaning into the positive.  I’ve been catching my thoughts as they run south and addressing the true issue as best as I can.  Today brought about a couple of emotional moments as I acknowledged my habit of people pleasing and being concerned about what others thought.  I recognized that a lot of my thought patterns around it were built on a survival mentality.  And I am recognizing more and more that I’m better than that.  I don’t need that thought pattern any longer, as it doesn’t serve the person I am becoming.  So there was some hurt in letting that go, in seeing it for what it was.

I continue to be a work in progress.

That said and well, onto lighter things...

We saw Hobbs and Shaw last night at the movies.  This year has definitely been movie packed, we did hit a lull for a bit but it’s picked back up.  I suspect we’ll hit up the Muny this week to see “Matilda”.  We saw “Cinderella” back in July.  And I would still like to see “Midsommar”, not too many theaters are showing it now.  

Also in other exciting news I am behind on my reading while my stack of book grows BUT I finally got around to scanning my art and checked out an illustrator video today.  I was planning to look at another one before bed but I need to carve out some writing time and reading.  So I’ll check out more tomorrow.

I did do another draft of MD’s book blurb.  Planning on doing a second edition of it soon to fix some known issues...

As far as completing task today, didn’t knock off a whole lot but it still felt very productive today with what I did accomplish, today was definitely one of those quality over quantity type days.  

At any rate, need to try to work a bit on LV&A... Here’s a pic of my vision board when I was working on it.  I now have it on my wall above my desk as a visual reminder.  Will grab a pic of the finished product to post later.

Apologies in advance for any typos, I’m uber tired and still need to handwrite.

Self vs Collective Part 1

I intended to write this huge post regarding my thoughts about this topic.  And knew it was large enough that it might result in multiple post.  However I am currently in a theater preparing to see a movie and limited in my time.  So this will be brief.

Recently I’ve been struggling with this concept.  As a person that constantly gives to the point of tapping myself I have come to recognize that it’s not healthy NOR is it beneficial to the collective.  And this is the part of my journey that I’m at.  With acknowledging this truth and working toward a balance.

For now that balance involves a focus on me...

That said, I want go into it much further but will say today was productive in that I was able to:
- Complete two index cards for TYW
- Draft a timeline for Pitch Wars
- Sign up for a class
- AND HIT MY BLOG GOAL FOR THE WEEK : )

Here’s to pursuing dreams, positive energy, and manifesting your hearts desires.

Nearly 30 task.... mostly writing related

It's a new dawn, it's a new day...

Every time I think of the choices I'm making and whom I'm working on becoming I hear those lyrics.  I think of them and I feel good :)

This past weekend I created a schedule for myself that I barely followed so instead, while sitting at Panera yesterday I put a lot of the items on a task list called "Targets for w/o 8/4-8/11" and I just began listing out everything I've been meaning to do, need to do, and want to do.  BUT told myself I'd have a goal of doing at least 3... That's right, I have a list of nearly 30 task and will consider it a good thing if I hit three for the week.  The crazy side of me wants to go for targeting at least 3 a day but I'm trying to be relaxed in my approach.  I want to be focused and overall I want to be patient.  I want to trust myself.  And so I shall.

I know I will likely accomplish more than three but I am not going to put pressure on myself to be insane.  I am results-focused and seeing things get checked off will suffice.

I'm also glad that I saw to some self care this weekend by treating myself to SLIFF, the music fundraiser, TOSTADA'S, making time to read, making time to journal and breakdown my dreams, and really work on me.  I recognize that with being more mindful in my approach that it has been tapping into my energy reservoir more and causing me the need to pause more in order to restore myself.  However it's all good because I'm catching the thoughts that don't serve me.  That don't serve/work for the person I'm becoming.

That said some recent accomplishments have involved:
- Working on my author stuff (FB content)
- I did deactivate my personal FB page... again
- Reaching out to DDD for a cover/confirm target date
- Signing up for classes
- Working on my schedule/time management for projects

And technically my break is up now.  Part of working on my time management is chunking out time to do specific task so I can hit various things (to avoid any potential burn out) and altering what I do on days.

I still have some things to work on/work out and there may be things I'm doing now that I might shift but I'm okay with the process and letting it fall-out as it needs to.  With that said, with trying to adopt a certain mindset I've recognized I need to be careful whose in that sphere of influence.  I still intend to love/be loving and kind but not everyone deserves my favor so I have to recognize I have things to do as part of my journey, as do others.

Aye, I got off on a tangent.  Hopefully when I update tomorrow I'll be able to say I got another item checked off the list.

Good Sunday

After service and group study today I took some time to figure out task for the week, most are writing related.  With the goal of checking off at least 3 of the 20 things.

I may post about it as I complete things.

Anywho today was busy:
Service on “choosing who you’ll become”
Study group on meditation
Writing time at Panera (mostly working on task for the week)
Attending summer soirée fundraiser (think I got a bit overwhelmed there)
Took some me time to recharge

And about to read/nod off since I’ve gotten in some writin and did dishes.

Pix from last night btw (that I had issue posting...)

Fly by post

I can’t believe I didn’t post once in July. Then again, given everything that happened in July I can believe it.

But this will be a quick post, plan to write more tomorrow.

For now a couple pix from StL NPR SLIFF event ... or not. Will try this again later.

Weekend To Do: 6/28 - 6/30

It is late and it's been a productive day for the most part but now I want to climb in my beanbag, read and doze off as well as deep condition my hair.

But before I do I want to jot down the task for this weekend:
- Think about camp
- Panic about camp
- Camp
- Have meltdown about camp
- Realize it'll be alright... camp
- Camp, camp, camp
- What is lif- CAAAAAAAAAAAAMP
- WHERE ARE YOU GOING?   YOU HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT CAMP????????
- Camp. PERIODT.
… … …

- Sleep

But no really I do want to keep the weekend simple as there are planned things such as:
- Hair
- Concert
…. … ::whisper:: camp /silence

Ideally I'd also accomplish these other things:
- Finish "The Book of M"
- Finish index cards for TYW
- Lock down opening
- Know how potential projects end (I feel like I know this for Year Two but new story... no idea)

However for the most part I'm going to try not to work myself up, seeing as a promotion for a balance transfer had me panicked earlier.  Got one big credit card balance left... I'll be glad when it's paid off. ..   But I'll sit down and figure out finances later as well as a new budget to put myself on in order to get things paid down this year.  Just gotta be patient.